Hello world :)

Well, haven't been feeling goood since yesterday afternooon.
Ya, exams are like finally over, it's time to loosen up..
But i think i'm not able to do so right now, cause i totally flung my FA examination!
I couldnt remember what i'm supposed to remember,
and i didnt put in more effort in trying harder to make sure i know how to do every single chapter with every single definations.
Blame it on myself.
This time it's really crashing hard on me. VERY!
Wanting to cry on the inside, but right outside, i'm putting up a strong front. One word to describe everything - Tiedious.
I really had no idea what can i do, but just to rant it out... ...
I tried to do so, at least it gets better at some part of the day, but still that feeling, it's coming strong from the inside. I just didnt know what to do.
Probably like what others say, just let it go away naturally, but how long does it gonna take.
Months, weeks, days? I dont have the say. Because it's coming strong this time, stronger than it used to be, i just couldn't let it go just like a finger's click.
I just hope and pray that i will feel better as time goes by.
Let the happy thoughts come flowing through my mind.
Let the sea, the sky, the sun, the clouds, the nights, do their jobs.
I believe that they will be able to do so.

Heh! i'm sure you all should already understand how i'm feeling right inside.
It's getting stuck right there.
Didnt know whether to be happy or sad or even angry.
My emotions just went crazy.

Okay, so yesterday afternoon, i ended my paper at around 4pm.
Was trying hard to squeeze everything out, but it just doesnt comes out
As I expected, i'm not gonna do well.
Met up with BFF after that, and my emotional side just came crashing on me.
Like what i said, dont know whether to be happy or sad :/
Soon, we were at the barrage - nearer to the sea. The weather was rather goooood.
The sky was blue? and the clouds were all like cotton candy.
Sat by the sea, and naturally, the uneasy feeling just went away with the sea waves crashing hard on the rocks. And just like that, all my hard feelings was gone!
So eventually, we talk about anything under the blue sky.
It did made me feel better & i feel great to have someone to talk to.
*Appreciates BFF's company, and thanks for your care & concern!*
Left at about 530. and homed aftermath.

Came home and decided to go out with brother.
Shopping.
It was about almost 10pm when i was at my doorstep.

And right now how i wish i could just rot at some places.
Where no worries, no emotional sides can be found.
Ah! I just don't feel Good! really... ... :(

Labels: not feeling gooooooooooooooooood.