Some short postings in the middle of the night.
I'm ain't sleeping yet and i'm sorry for not sleeping early.

Well, i believe my Second Brother knows what i'm doing.
And i proven to him that i'm very different from the last time.
Where i always wouldn't listened to him.
But hey! I sat down there and listened to him.
He talk sensed to me, but at least i shown him that i had matured alot, therefore i knew what i was doing.
So nothing will changed, cause what i had decided, won't be changed easily.
What's made up on my mind will stay like how it was.
And i will proved to all that there's really nothing wrong.
It's just like how people always react when they see lesbians and gays. [no offence, really]
yeah yeah, that kind, like OMG! Why the hell are they even like that.

Sometimes really wonder, what the people out there are thinking.
Probably, it's safer to have a best friend with the same gender?
Nah, no for my case, cause i believe that pure friendship building doesn't include gender.
I have two Sec school besties. Good enough to have one from each gender.
Well, due to different aspects and own commitments, we don't meet up rarely.
Maybe.... right now.. In this world, this very moment.
It happens to be...
Just the way how people think and how they take things.
From what my Brother and mine thinking, i can see, it's way different.
I guess he's the type where A is always A and B is always B.
But he understoods what i'm trying to interplate.
A can B, and B can be A. But just know where the limits are.
Yes, i truely understand, and i know my limits therefore i'm not overdoing it.
He told me his life experienced stories. Can't blamed him for telling me that.
As unexpectedly, i just stood there and listened to him. For like 15 -20 mins?
Well, i think, there isn't much explanations to say towards him,
cause afterall i'm living my own life soon after years down the road.
Solving my own problems with regards to life or even marriage and etc.
And perhaps, i don't need people to make decisions for me. As i know, i can think for myself.
I can say i'm alot more stronger than before.
Alittle more wiser.
Alot more mature way before.
Turing 19 years old in about 5 months. .
I had already proven to my Brother by speaking to him nicely and he gave me that respect.
Thank you is all i can say.

I'm really sorry for making the other party,
So depressed and angry at some point of the time.
I really didn't meant it to be like this too.
Really, cause i was feeling very bad and super down.
Putting on fake smiles and controlling my emotions. Really.
And trying hard at the same time to concentrate on the lessons too.
But lessons was rather effective.
I'm blaming myself for been that stubborn. >.<
Oh Eunice! what the heck are you even doing.
Stop hurting people like this, and give a big tight slap on yourself.
Please!

I believe that 2009 is really gonna be a good year.
Please grant me that, cause i don't want to regret it afterall.
2008 is yet a breeze but some happiness were input into it :)
I pray and i pray hard.

time for me to start doing something which has been a long time. i need the immediate release.

As i thought, why are they even looking at my stuffs. Where's my personal space and privacy.
Oh come on man... =/ But i still shall forgave them cause, afterall they are still my family.

Perfection is achieved by embracing imperfections.
Nothing in this world is perfect.
If something or someone appears perfect to you,
it's because it knows the art of concealing.

The ability to hide your flaws and flaunt your pros isn't difficult to master.
but the process in which you begin to try and the end result is the most crucial.
often, we are deceived by the outer appearance.
as they say : first impression is the most important.
it's human nature to judge you by how you look.

God never solves the problem for us.
"He" mainly just gives us hints to the solution of our woes,
and that's how he taught us to learn from mistakes.

okay, it's time for me to rest.
Nights to 1.01Am. or maybe 1.02Am.
Probably i should said it's 2.20Am now...
Maybe, i should go office early later on.

Lovely day. I'm goood~!
:)

Blog later again, if there's something more for me to post.

toodles!

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